If you told me a few years ago that I’d write an article to celebrate my body, I’d would have laughed out loud. I literally hated every single thing about how I looked like. When I saw my reflection in the mirror, all I could see were huge thighs, giant hips and small boobs.
As a child, I was fairly slim. But then puberty hit and WOAH my body started changing. I gained weight at lightening speed and felt miserable as I couldn’t recognise myself. When my classmates started making fun of me, I convinced myself that I had to be skinny to look pretty. That marked the start of my disordered relationship with food and my own body.
I counted calories and overanalysed everything I ate. Whenever I had a moment of weakness and treated myself to some chocolate or cake, I’d pinch the skin around my belly and tell myself that I’m fat and ugly. After months of depriving myself of food, I achieved the ‘perfect’ weight. Sadly that didn’t make me feel any happier. I still had body image issues and felt like I was not good enough.
I can’t pinpoint the exact time when I realised that I need to stop bashing my own body. However, I know that I wouldn’t get to where I am today without the support of my family.
I don’t want to blame the society or media for my negative body image but we live in times when our looks are constantly scrutinised. It’s easy to get wrapped up in trying to look like models from glossy magazines but we need to remember that health, beauty and strength come in all sizes.
Having said that, there are still some days when a negative committee in my head tries to tell me that I need to change the way I look like. Thankfully I’ve learnt how to control those thoughts. So when this happens, I look in the mirror and remind myself that I’m pretty just the way I am. I have a typical pear-shaped figure and there’s absolutely nothing wrong with my hips or bigger bum. In fact, I often wear pencil skirts and dresses to flaunt those curves.
I want you to celebrate your body. Forget about crash diets promising quick weight loss. Stop the negative self-talk and commit to loving yourself more. Your weight or dress size doesn’t define who you are. Real happiness comes from balance so don’t beat yourself up if you indulge on your favourite food or skip that early morning workout.
Smile, hold your head high and remember that you are beautiful just the way you are.